Camping

Last night was disaster, didn't get done what we hoped. So this morning was even worse, scrambling and forgetting things... We had to turn around lol.. But we are out here and dusty is kayaking and last minute they extended the invite for me. I almost said yes, until I thought how cold that water was. So I decided to take bells for a walk! Here I am stopping just to pray and relax for a minute. Gods creation is wonderful... Except for snakes and scorpions ..... Anyway can't wait until tonight, we have grilled corn and dogs!

Going down!

I am down .4 from yesterday! So 1.6 in total :) praying that I won't blow it this weekend camping

Bells alarm clock

If you want to be awaken by constant licking in your face at all times in the am, I have the alarm clock for you! Guaranteed to snooze(go curl up under the covers) once you have really began to wake up. When you have reached that point of no return... Erg why can't we sleep in little one?? Four or five I think was this morning ... Oh yeah she left a wet surprise in the hallway that I stepped in (pee) not sure why she couldn't hold it... Well, she does have the worlds smallest bladder..

Thursday thoughts

Still no baby:( We are camping this weekend in our popup that has heat! Our church friends are coming too, it should be fun:) but this means we have to pack as much as we can tonight. We need to set up early tomorrow due to dusty kayaking to the campsite. I wish I could go, but it's "a guy thing" just because other wives don't want to, they ruin the fun! Granted the water will be really cold.. Trying to get my parents to come out as a birthday gift for my dad... Still wont say for sure whether or not they are coming!! Diet wise I am doing ok. I think my body is adjusting to being hungry and what not. I really don't like being hungry, and if I don't plan out what I am eating it gets real difficult at night. So I typically stretch what I eat during the day so I can have enough for dinner. I think overall I am doing good, especially since I don't have my plan and stuff yet. I found a calculator online and looked up some things I ate and I am trying to write down and track what I eat. I think that there will be an app for it once I pay. I can't wait to start seeing results, obviously not overnight especially since I have a bunch to lose, but I know the diff 10 pounds make! It usually is close to a size difference:) and I wonder how the weight will come off, I have more belly far than I did before... I have it everywhere !! Fat go away lol oh yeah so not only are we camping, the baby will be here sometime soon, mom will sign me up for WW, I will have to menu plan and grocery shop, and I think there is a concert Sunday night (but from the looks I'd things is not going to happen).. Lots to do, oh yeah clean the house and decorate tree?? We have to buy lights erg ...

Success!

Huge wins in my book :) I lost 1.2 pounds in three days! Yeah for me sticking with it and thanks be to The Lord for allowing my body to get rid of the excess:) lets keep on going!! I nearly forgot to weigh myself this morning. Glad I remembered, because I went up before I went down. I made zucchini turkey lasagna on the fly and my husband ate it:) I could tell it wasn't his favorite, but he made a tremendous effort and didn't say anything bad!

Hungry

I need more protein for my snacks... Fruits and veggies are not cutting it. Making me jittery lightheaded and not good...

Frustrated with Internet

Just wrote a whole post... Lost now I am out of time:(

Tuesday...

Here I am in bed wishing my alarm didn't just go off.. Wondering when my friend will pop out her little one. I would love to hold her, along with everyone else! I asked my husband on sunday if he could make dinner Monday night(last night) and when I came home I discovered that dinner was at pan era:) So we went to panera and it was delic! Expensive, and I wonder how many "points" my meal was... My mom and I are officially starting this weekend!! Hip hip hooray! I am excited, after a few tears and praying I am ready for the journey. Still praying for recipes that work for my husband and I, and for me to be able to follow easily. It would be nice to lose more than 1 pound a week but we will see. I have about 5 weeks left for 2012 and I just pray that I will stick to my plan and lost weight by then!!! I don't think I want to share how much I weigh, but I will tell you how much I have lost or not.. I weighed myself yesterday and will use that guideline even though I haven't started weight watchers, I am trying to watch what I eat this week. Two reasons, 1 I need to start sometime, 2 this way when we officially start it won't be a big difference. I must go and shower and things for work.

New goals

My mom is wanting to pay for her and I to join weight watchers together. This is my early Christmas gift. I want this, I really do. I am praying that God can help me through the process. I think one of my fears is not having yummy food to feed my husband. I am praying that God can show me recipes that will work for Dusty and I both. I know God can do this! I believe with the help and support of loved ones and prayer I will lose weight! I believe because I achieved it before. I am embarrassed at how much I weigh right now...it makes me cry and feel awful. That is not how God designed my life. I used to have better self esteem, but when I lost weight and realized I could do it then gained it back plus my self esteem has not been the best. I am being honest because I need to say it. This is a battle for me. I have come to realize that satan uses food as a way to destroy people. I am praying that I can have a healthy relationship with food and that I can marry this with feeding my husband who does not need or want to be on a diet... So, as long as mom gets the approval she and I will start our weight loss journey and I will try and share whenever I can. I have never done weight watchers so this will be new and exciting for me... Please pray!

Nails

So I stayed home today and I looked up nail designs on you tube and came across a water color swirl? I am blanking on the name but you basically drip nail polish in a small container preferably disposable and swirl till the desired tye die effect is achieved then you dip your finger on the design. Not going in every detail but here is my first attempt

Emotionally complicated

Why do we girls have to be so emotionally complicated??? Lol, it's frustrating... Side note I am playing Christmas music

Conjunctivitis

I have a viral eye infection ... Very contagious. Banned from work. It's not your typical pink eye. I don't get meds! Say what! It's viral so flushing with water and cold washcloths on it seems to help with the symptoms. I have to strip our bed and put new sheets on so my hubby can sleep. And I will try and not get near. So maybe the recliner for me :( it is not fun. My eye was really bothering me last night, thankfully I feel better this morning. ....

Unamerican

Does it make me unamerican that I have never trick or treated??? No!! Seriously people we did stuff just didn't dress up and trick or treat. Sheesh

November

So still a temp at work... Beginning to think its not so bad, maybe God has something different for me? Had my first potluck at work, still trying to learn office politics and personalities. . . Excited about this weekend, having a lefse making party at my parents and we have guests staying at our house sat night! Ahh! Lots to do... Thanksgiving is right around the corner, hard to believe...

Halloween...

So a couple things, I grew up in a family where we did not dress up or go trick or treating. We went to parties or church festivals and dunked for apples and got candy. Carving pumpkins were a must and Dad staying behind to pass out candy was a tradition. I was taught that it was not a good holiday, and it has stuck with me. Today being the day after is the day of the dead and in other countries you go and honor loved ones that have passed. Here in America we skip over that part. I have noticed that in recent years it is more acceptable to dress up for church festivals and places like the mall and such. But to me it doesn't seem right. I know what could be wrong, we are just having fun? But it truly doesn't sit right with me. My husband grew up not even carving pumpkins! They also did not give out candy. I may be extreme and I have nothing against people doing it. I just don't know what traditions we might pass on to our future children.