New goals

My mom is wanting to pay for her and I to join weight watchers together. This is my early Christmas gift. I want this, I really do. I am praying that God can help me through the process. I think one of my fears is not having yummy food to feed my husband. I am praying that God can show me recipes that will work for Dusty and I both. I know God can do this! I believe with the help and support of loved ones and prayer I will lose weight! I believe because I achieved it before. I am embarrassed at how much I weigh right now...it makes me cry and feel awful. That is not how God designed my life. I used to have better self esteem, but when I lost weight and realized I could do it then gained it back plus my self esteem has not been the best. I am being honest because I need to say it. This is a battle for me. I have come to realize that satan uses food as a way to destroy people. I am praying that I can have a healthy relationship with food and that I can marry this with feeding my husband who does not need or want to be on a diet... So, as long as mom gets the approval she and I will start our weight loss journey and I will try and share whenever I can. I have never done weight watchers so this will be new and exciting for me... Please pray!