Sat

Well yesterday we went out on a double date and went to mcguires! Lots of people were out due to the holidays. We were squished while we waited for an hour, but it was worth the wait. We got to sit in a newer addition of the building, one I have not been in before. It was just enjoyable all around. I saved a lot of my daily points, plus in case my weeklies started over on Friday. I really like their burgers :) I know there is plenty of yummy dishes but how can you pass up one of their burgers.. Yum. I had originally thought they were 1/2 pound burgers, ah no they were 3/4 pound burgers!! Holy moley! Now, I don't think I have ever eaten a whole burger before.. I usually eat 1/2, and a couple fries. I tried to find a comparable burger but its hard to say what is comparable...well anyway our friends ordered an appetizer and I had one spinach dip and chip, and then we ordered the .18 cent soup which was a pretty big bowl! I was nearly full after the soup! I had a 1/4 of the burger and two small homestyle fries :) I was satisfied but not stuffed! :) then we left because the waitress was nice but too talkative... So, we went downtown and hung out for a bit. We don't do that often so it was nice. I have decided for now I like weighing myself everyday because I want to be aware of what's going on... Maybe when I have gotten smaller I will stop but I weighed myself this morning and I am down .2 from before so 9.2 officially! Yeah

Sat...

Bella whined and whined early this morning to be let outside, sigh no sleeping in. Once I was up I was up. I want to make egg rolls, black eye peas, steamed cabbage, and Asian glazed chicken! Not all for the same meal, but I am itching to make them. The scale is almost back to where I was before Christmas. I am starting my period in the next few days so I should see a dip right before( I think that's what my body does) I found a new website. I believe it's the slender kitchen? I have a recipe printed out its just in another room at the moment. I also saw an endorsement for yonanas maker! My ninja works well enough but the yonana maker looks so cool! Basically turning frozen fruit into soft serve. Yum. I am not a big ice cream fan, but I like frozen fruit ice cream :) and I like frozen yogurt- soft serve yumminess. My brother is flying in on Monday and we are going to watch my baby brother play downtown to ring in the new year!

Christmas recap

So Christmas Eve we cleaned! Our house was very dirty... Then we went to our church's Christmas Eve service and then went to the in-laws. We didn't get home till after one! I was very blessed with all the gifts they gave. Christmas morning was just us three:) Bella apparently likes the pretty wrapping paper :) we went over to my moms and made a very bountiful and yummy feast! I ended up slightly frustrated and at the very end of day crying at my mom. I had thought I would be better at tracking how many points wig food at moms than at the in laws. Mom kept forgetting she added pecans to the muffins and added this and that! Erg... Sigh oh well it was a mix of pms in there as well. We played Mexican dominoes and it was a lot of fun! I will finish this off with some pics!

Day after Christmas

I am here at work, soo quiet.. I looked again at what I weighed a couple days ago and I must have been mixed up. I have lost 9 pounds just not 11. Oops! But I am excited about 9 and that 11 is near! I am up one pound due to Christmas, but that should go away quickly. My mom did not make it easy for me yesterday. ...tell ya later about it:)

Christmas Eve

So, my body must have been shifting and just decided to let go of some fat! I decided to weigh myself this morning thinking I would be up. The scale went down two more pounds!!!!! Say what! When I weigh myself I sometimes triple check it to make sure it's accurate. So, my mom said just take the loss and be happy! :) that makes 11 pounds total! Merry Christmas to me!!! I realize that I may have some slow weeks coming but I am ready for them. Wow this is cool! Thank you Lord for helping me through this journey, I could not do this without you. Last night I took my mom to the grocery store and showed her some low point options for snacks. Since I have the smart phone and since she is lower points she really needs those 1 point snacks! WW cheese sticks and laughing cow cheese and yummy yogurt you can freeze and jello:) today is rainy and I have to bake cookies for tonight with the in laws, and tomorrow we will be going to my parents later in the day. Wait that is totally hail! Ttyl

What a weekend!

So last week was challenging with only losing .4 but Thursday I weighed myself and I had lost over a pound overnight. Then Friday was our potluck Christmas party, even though we have vegetarians and health/ fitness nuts they like their calories in these potluck situations... I overslept and decided to use Thursdays weight to weigh in officially. I had barely grabbed an apple for breakfast that day- very unlike me. So, I ate carefully from all the potluck foods and I didn't finish what was on my plate! Go me:) the rest of the day I was so thirsty and I could just taste salt .. I was not going to weigh myself for a few days due to water weight and such. I figured I would go up slightly then go down. I weighed myself this morning out of curiosity because I had treats within my daily range but overall I wanted to see what it had done for the scale. I was so shocked I have lost 9 pounds!!!! Say what! Over two pounds this week, which they say is not healthy but I am eating my points and if you add last weeks loss it evens out! :) I also got shirts on clearance at khols yesterday. So cute and shirts that will be good as I lose weight. Meaning I can where them as I lose weight. My big brother was supposed to be here but due to weather he will be here next week. My little bro treated us to its a wonderful life on the big screen and I loved it via big screen! Very enjoyable:)

It works!

Thank The Lord! I just saw the scale go down 1.6 overnight! My body had been holding on but I prayed that The Lord would help, and wahoo!! So I have lost 7.2 pounds! I am on a journey and this will be a up and down ride for sure... The Lord is on my side and I shall not fear this diet/lifestyle. Yesterday I only ate about 15 points, not really planning on it but it happened. It turned out to be a blessing because my Hubbie had bought steak and he had cut it in half which resulted about 8oz of sirloin. That was 15 points alone! Holy moly lol! We made brownies and for 1/16 of the brownie was 3 points:) not bad! I think I need to start measuring myself... And keep track that way. I resisted the urge to snack on all the goodies at work yesterday:) seeing the scale godown is always a good reward.

Wed...

Doing secret dollar day Santa gifts this week. I received a 5 dollar gift card to Starbucks on the first day! Now, technically I got it in my second day but it was my first gift. Second gift was a snowman ornament:) I was tempted with sweets at work yesterday and I gave in to a mini cupcake and I think a brownie truffle? Two small things, I counted for them in my daily points. I am still not happy with the scale:( I want more progress! I haven't lost any this week and went up today. I am not upset like last week, but if it does not change by Friday I am lowering my points like they suggest by three... I don't like stepping in, but less than a .5 lost in a week for how much I have to lose is not acceptable! If I was thinner, maybe it would be ok. I want to lose 10 pounds plus by my birthday feb 2nd. Anyway, Christmas is near and I am not in the Christmas mood this year...I just looked at my clock, I am running behind!

Summing it up

I officially lost weight this week... .4 to be exact.. I am glad it went down. I have been dealing with a lot of emotions since starting this ww process. I can cry at the simplest of things, but the scale went down:)total lost is 5.6! I tried three new recipes. One black bean brownies, well I would rather have quality over quantity. Spinach and mushroom lasagna has promise, and my favorite thyme and scallion potato pancake! Basically very flavorful hash brown patties for 1 point! You take fresh or frozen hash browns mix scallion, grated onion, thyme, and an egg (they added a touch of flour, we tried it with both and hubby liked it without flour) mix it all together and you basically bake it in three ten min increments! That's the longest part, but I am going to make this for my family this weekend! Yummy! Pray that I see more progress this week! Dear Lord please help me stay focused and mentally and physically prepared for this week, Amen.

Toby Mac and Mandisa!

Concert is tonight!! Dusty and I are volunteering... We are trying to save money and not spend extra. One way to do that and volunteer:) we get to enjoy the concert and get free merchandise. So, since I am not on the set up and tear down crew the meeting they want you at is at 4:15. I am at work till5! But they said that was fine, just get there as soon as possible. Which also means bring dinner to work and all that jazz.... I woke up early and decided to dance for 30 min and start the day off in a good way. I used some of my weekly points last night in my new resolve to follow and trust ww for a couple of weeks. Doing this by, making sure I eat all my daily points and most or all my weekly points. My mom and I are nervous but I trusted LA weight loss and it worked. This is a lifestyle change that will be good. It will teach me how to handle everyday ups and downs. Not just only eat this, but just be accountable to what you are eating. I don't want to trust my scale today because it went back down that .6 that appeared the past two days. I prayed for help and got some from The Lord. It is hard to believe what your brain is trying to tell you when your emotions are threatening to spill. I must go but thank you God I am in a better head space as you would say:)

Despair

My scale is going up! I am still measuring and following the plan! I have been trying to eat all my points and yesterday I was two shy but otherwise I went over a point or two before that... I am so frustrated. I don't have anyone to call or email.. I would have to pay extra for a meeting.. I don't know if I need to eat less or eat more!!! I cried yesterday, I knew that .2 up was ok, but today with it going up.4 meaning .6 all together!! Lord please help me, I need your help. My body is not cooperating and I pray that you will flush out anything that is blocking my weight loss and that my efforts will be rewarded...

Inconsistencies

The scale went up... :( I need to remember that this does happen. Just a little discouraging... Sigh. Dear Lord please help me through this process, I know you are here with me. Thank you for everything you have shown me so far and I pray that I can learn and grow in a positive healthy way in this process. Amen

Monday grump day

I am tired like usual lol.. I did sleep better last night. I also went over my daily points because I had pizza for lunch with my brother then after a Christmas concert I got hungry due to a small dinner beforehand. I love frozen yogurt! I got my mom red velvet cake by yoplait and stuck it in the freezer for her... Yummy! It was perfect due to it only being in the freezer for a few hours, but for the really frozen ones you have to let it sit a bit. It would be nice to make yogurt Popsicles. I am on the lookout for reusable Popsicle makers. Only two points and it is good:) thank you to my coworker who suggested it. So officially today is two weeks since I started losing weight. But I changed my weigh in day to Sunday. So my week has already started. :) I have lost 5.4 in two weeks! I am happy! I miss taking pictures... I don't like pictures of me right now. I want pictures of dusty and I and it hurts me to see me in them... But anyway, I am on my way down. So, I took some clothes out of my closet and I have a few items I am working towards fitting in. My birthday is 6 weeks away I think? I have a dress that I would like to wear for my birthday, I can put it on and it fits snug around my boobs with no bra, but a comfortable snug. I wouldn't need a bra at this point, but I can't zip up the side all the way. I got it at a garage sail for .25! I think that ten pounds or so more I could fit in it. We will just see though. I will be turning 27! Ahh! Not quite sure what I want to do for birthday. Kind of debating between a public birthday dinner with friends, or an intimate dinner with my sweetheart. But let's tackle Christmas shall we:)

Thank The Lord for the day is a new day!

I slept a little better last night, but my mind is still racing... I pray that my mind and body calms. I didn't lose any from yesterday:( but come on cant see it go down everyday! Lol :) I worked out via dancing to dance central for 30 min. Yesterday i danced for an hour:) I also took Bella for a short walk, but I earned my activity goal this week!! I wasn't even worrying about that this week but the weekends offer plenty of opportunity for me to exercise. I do not have extra money for gym. I like that WW encourages doing things a few min at a time if your busy and giving you ideas how to work out at home. I am headed to church this morning with my brother:) this is a big accomplishment because I usually stay home when dusty works.

Can't sleep

Why oh why am I not sleeping? I am also hungry which might be part of it... Maybe water and a Tb of pb.. I worked out yesterday and got hungry later in the day. I went to bed fine, but apparently my body had diff ideas. I got to spend time with the little sweet baby:) she pretty much wants to sleep and eat right now, but last night we kept her awake so she hopefully would sleep. She has this cutest grumpy face ever! I am blessed for having friends that don't mind us coming over and hanging out and seeing their little one. God give me the strength for my future children. I can see its a lot of hard work physically and emotionally.

Yeah for Friday!

So I have lost 5.2 in 11 days! Go me! And thank The Lord, for all the help mentally and physically. It's amazing I don't feel like I eat that different I just write it down and as long as I am in the guidelines, it feels like the magic formula.. It's still a lot of work. Really planning out everything. I didn't use all of my points yesterday, I just was not needing them. Besides I probably will be losing a few food points because I have lost weight. I weigh in once a week. I wish I could enter the daily weigh in, but I understand why not. I am tired.. I woke up when my husband was getting ready for work. Now, it's time to sleep lol:) I have lots to do, bake the rest of Bella's treats, go on a walk, look at sales, maybe go Christmas shopping, and then making dinner for our friends with the newborn!!

Ready to be home

Random pics from this past week:)

Merry Christmas!

Here is my Christmas wreath I put together with the flowers my hubby picked out!

Why am I awake...

Last day for work this week! It's been crazy hectic. Not as busy, but there is a guy that transferred to care sales which directly relates and corresponds with our department. He received no training! So, needless to say crazy. I am a planner, I write lists, I mentally prepare myself for things and I feel like my brain is in overdrive. Hyper-vigilant to an extent. I plan out what I eat when I eat it and it works for me. Exhausting till I get in some kind of routine. I lost weight doing LA weightloss and they were strict. You had to eat this this and this. But at the same time it was easier to plan because your choices were limited. Long term that obviously didn't work out too well. Yesterday I tried doing a new routine, as suggested. They suggest for some to take a bite then sip water and basically wait before you have another. I guess to help you from not mindlessly eating and it also helps you realize when your full. I like it because I think I was never starving yesterday. I don't like feeling hungry. So this technique is good for me, it should help me slow down even when I am really hungry. Hopefully I won't get there too often but it happens. I feel better when I know what to eat during the day because the guesswork is taken out. And if dinner is unknown then I will reserve the appropriate amount. I wish I could somehow include my 2.6 before WW, because those first pounds usually come off quicker.. Oh we'll I have plenty to lose and I will get there when I get there. As I learn more about WW, I can see how this can go for a lifetime because they want you to splurge and have fun and variety in food. I asked a friend that does WW and their scale sounds amazing. Here I am counting out pretzels 1. 2. ...17. Lol among other things. The fact you can zero out a dish, awesome. My scale you have to place it in their container. Oh you have raw chicken and other things to weigh? Too bad you have to wash it! Erg! Another thing the last two days I used all my points. Yesterday I accidentally went over but I have all my weeklies. I forgot to add the choc chips to the recipe builder and my three mini cookies went from two points to three points! Oops! Lol I knew I should have stopped at two. Oh we'll like I said they want you to indulge a little. Well my alarm went off a few min ago while I was writing, so let me weigh myself and see... Holy crap! I have almost lost 5pnds!!4.4 to be exact! Doing a happy dance!! :)) that made my day! Bye for now :)

The scale is friendly

Down . 2! So 2.8 all together!

Sweepy

I am about to turn out the lights.. It was a good day, but it had its low points. I updated my starting weight to a pound less and it dropped a daily point! Awesome! I decided to try and eat some protein snacks and things and see where 37 points took me. Well I used all of them today! 9 were from cheddar cheese!! Ah! Lol:) I had cramps today and an upset stomach and I felt wonky. I am tired of looking things up for the night. I am making taco salad tomorrow, but I am using dry beans so that has been a two day process.. Just realized its a slow cooker recipe, so maybe the husband can help out. Work was crazy today.. Oh dusty might be teaching at our local junior college on saturdays in the spring semester for an intro to criminal justice! Not officially hired, but it looks promising!! Praying that The Lord will seal the deal, this is exactly the opportunity that he needs to start teaching. Not only extra money to pay off debt, but excellent for his résumé. Thank you Lord for helping me through this weight loss journey, I still need plenty of help and support to make this a lifetime commitment. I def have things that need to change in my life. And it will take more than a week to achieve them. Cooking for meals is so messy... It is the same diet or no diet, but it's crazy how much eating out people do...I can't focus need sleep...

Public bathrooms

I really don't like having multiple stalls at work... If you have stomach problems or a clean out, that is not cool when other people are in the same room... But at the same time if there was just one stall and you were the last one in and someone came in right after... Lol both would be bad

Confused

Is it Tuesday? Lol, good morning...my brain is so not functioning. I got to see and hold baby Sophia! So cute and precious:) she had eaten and was sleeping before I got there. So when she was handed to me she had this slightly grumpy look, why did you wake me up? Lol, she went back to sleep and was content.
On other news my period started, this is odd because typically it won't start till Wednesday. I stop taking pill on Friday then I start Wednesday. I didn't write down in one spot exactly when I weighed myself this past week, and I forgot what I weighed yesterday. I think I am down 2.6 but I was unsure last night. Since my period started I don't expect the scale to agree with me, but I will look. When I lost weight before I would dip lower right before period then go up then as long as I kept it up I would keep losing. We will see this time. Mom payed for weight watchers last night! Merry Christmas to me! I have so many points I don't want to eat all of them. My mom has 26, but she only wants to lose maybe 15. I have 38! Ahh! Am i really that heavy! That I have to eat that much more... :( I was thinking 30... Well I put in all that I ate and thankfully I got hungry after my yogurt, because I ate pretzels and my daily count still had twelve more points for me to eat. I only ate the 26. Today I will pack a bit more protein and that should help with my hunger and getting my points a little higher. I just don't agree with 38. I had leftovers for lunch and it was really low in points and I didn't pack cheese or almonds. Well, let me weigh myself and see... Ok so I did lose 2.6 this last week. I put the wrong weight in for weight watchers. And I stayed the same since yesterday, but I am on my period so not worried.

Yeah!!!

So officially it has been a week since I started losing weight:) I was worried about camping and thank The Lord I lost another pound! Totaling 2.6 pounds have come off my body!! I am very happy with this. I did not get weight watchers officially started yet, but I am going to my moms tonight to set it up. My hubby has helped me a lot and I appreciate being able to share this with him. Weight is never an easy subject to talk about and he has been wonderful about it. He understands now how much I want this to work long term, so he helped me pick the right dinner choice at Panda Express. He also found some chicken breakfast sausage for me that is 1 point a link! Now all I can have is 1 but that gives me protein in the morning that I need. Anyway, my friend had her baby and I can't wait to see her! Maybe this week dusty and i can bring dinner over and eat together and talk. And if course coo over Sophia :)

What a weekend

Well it's Sunday morning and we are still camping:) ready to go home in a few hours. After enjoying the calm of the morning and eating some grub, I am done with camping for the week! Last night my folks came out and we took a stroll on the beach and watched the sunset. Then we grilled chicken, corn, zucchini, and summer squash! Yummo! Then some yummy melted marshmallow. I had decided no s'mores and the marshmallow is good by itself. When my rents left we enjoyed the rest of the evening:) overall I hope I have been careful of what I ate the past two days... No scale out here.. Def did not drink enough water. It's hard to pee every 15 min when the bathhouse is a walk. I got plenty of exercise though! Learned new things about the fort and about the island. Well I am the only one up, but I think I will remedy that one soon:)

Camping

Last night was disaster, didn't get done what we hoped. So this morning was even worse, scrambling and forgetting things... We had to turn around lol.. But we are out here and dusty is kayaking and last minute they extended the invite for me. I almost said yes, until I thought how cold that water was. So I decided to take bells for a walk! Here I am stopping just to pray and relax for a minute. Gods creation is wonderful... Except for snakes and scorpions ..... Anyway can't wait until tonight, we have grilled corn and dogs!

Going down!

I am down .4 from yesterday! So 1.6 in total :) praying that I won't blow it this weekend camping

Bells alarm clock

If you want to be awaken by constant licking in your face at all times in the am, I have the alarm clock for you! Guaranteed to snooze(go curl up under the covers) once you have really began to wake up. When you have reached that point of no return... Erg why can't we sleep in little one?? Four or five I think was this morning ... Oh yeah she left a wet surprise in the hallway that I stepped in (pee) not sure why she couldn't hold it... Well, she does have the worlds smallest bladder..

Thursday thoughts

Still no baby:( We are camping this weekend in our popup that has heat! Our church friends are coming too, it should be fun:) but this means we have to pack as much as we can tonight. We need to set up early tomorrow due to dusty kayaking to the campsite. I wish I could go, but it's "a guy thing" just because other wives don't want to, they ruin the fun! Granted the water will be really cold.. Trying to get my parents to come out as a birthday gift for my dad... Still wont say for sure whether or not they are coming!! Diet wise I am doing ok. I think my body is adjusting to being hungry and what not. I really don't like being hungry, and if I don't plan out what I am eating it gets real difficult at night. So I typically stretch what I eat during the day so I can have enough for dinner. I think overall I am doing good, especially since I don't have my plan and stuff yet. I found a calculator online and looked up some things I ate and I am trying to write down and track what I eat. I think that there will be an app for it once I pay. I can't wait to start seeing results, obviously not overnight especially since I have a bunch to lose, but I know the diff 10 pounds make! It usually is close to a size difference:) and I wonder how the weight will come off, I have more belly far than I did before... I have it everywhere !! Fat go away lol oh yeah so not only are we camping, the baby will be here sometime soon, mom will sign me up for WW, I will have to menu plan and grocery shop, and I think there is a concert Sunday night (but from the looks I'd things is not going to happen).. Lots to do, oh yeah clean the house and decorate tree?? We have to buy lights erg ...

Success!

Huge wins in my book :) I lost 1.2 pounds in three days! Yeah for me sticking with it and thanks be to The Lord for allowing my body to get rid of the excess:) lets keep on going!! I nearly forgot to weigh myself this morning. Glad I remembered, because I went up before I went down. I made zucchini turkey lasagna on the fly and my husband ate it:) I could tell it wasn't his favorite, but he made a tremendous effort and didn't say anything bad!

Hungry

I need more protein for my snacks... Fruits and veggies are not cutting it. Making me jittery lightheaded and not good...

Frustrated with Internet

Just wrote a whole post... Lost now I am out of time:(

Tuesday...

Here I am in bed wishing my alarm didn't just go off.. Wondering when my friend will pop out her little one. I would love to hold her, along with everyone else! I asked my husband on sunday if he could make dinner Monday night(last night) and when I came home I discovered that dinner was at pan era:) So we went to panera and it was delic! Expensive, and I wonder how many "points" my meal was... My mom and I are officially starting this weekend!! Hip hip hooray! I am excited, after a few tears and praying I am ready for the journey. Still praying for recipes that work for my husband and I, and for me to be able to follow easily. It would be nice to lose more than 1 pound a week but we will see. I have about 5 weeks left for 2012 and I just pray that I will stick to my plan and lost weight by then!!! I don't think I want to share how much I weigh, but I will tell you how much I have lost or not.. I weighed myself yesterday and will use that guideline even though I haven't started weight watchers, I am trying to watch what I eat this week. Two reasons, 1 I need to start sometime, 2 this way when we officially start it won't be a big difference. I must go and shower and things for work.

New goals

My mom is wanting to pay for her and I to join weight watchers together. This is my early Christmas gift. I want this, I really do. I am praying that God can help me through the process. I think one of my fears is not having yummy food to feed my husband. I am praying that God can show me recipes that will work for Dusty and I both. I know God can do this! I believe with the help and support of loved ones and prayer I will lose weight! I believe because I achieved it before. I am embarrassed at how much I weigh right now...it makes me cry and feel awful. That is not how God designed my life. I used to have better self esteem, but when I lost weight and realized I could do it then gained it back plus my self esteem has not been the best. I am being honest because I need to say it. This is a battle for me. I have come to realize that satan uses food as a way to destroy people. I am praying that I can have a healthy relationship with food and that I can marry this with feeding my husband who does not need or want to be on a diet... So, as long as mom gets the approval she and I will start our weight loss journey and I will try and share whenever I can. I have never done weight watchers so this will be new and exciting for me... Please pray!

Nails

So I stayed home today and I looked up nail designs on you tube and came across a water color swirl? I am blanking on the name but you basically drip nail polish in a small container preferably disposable and swirl till the desired tye die effect is achieved then you dip your finger on the design. Not going in every detail but here is my first attempt

Emotionally complicated

Why do we girls have to be so emotionally complicated??? Lol, it's frustrating... Side note I am playing Christmas music

Conjunctivitis

I have a viral eye infection ... Very contagious. Banned from work. It's not your typical pink eye. I don't get meds! Say what! It's viral so flushing with water and cold washcloths on it seems to help with the symptoms. I have to strip our bed and put new sheets on so my hubby can sleep. And I will try and not get near. So maybe the recliner for me :( it is not fun. My eye was really bothering me last night, thankfully I feel better this morning. ....

Unamerican

Does it make me unamerican that I have never trick or treated??? No!! Seriously people we did stuff just didn't dress up and trick or treat. Sheesh

November

So still a temp at work... Beginning to think its not so bad, maybe God has something different for me? Had my first potluck at work, still trying to learn office politics and personalities. . . Excited about this weekend, having a lefse making party at my parents and we have guests staying at our house sat night! Ahh! Lots to do... Thanksgiving is right around the corner, hard to believe...

Halloween...

So a couple things, I grew up in a family where we did not dress up or go trick or treating. We went to parties or church festivals and dunked for apples and got candy. Carving pumpkins were a must and Dad staying behind to pass out candy was a tradition. I was taught that it was not a good holiday, and it has stuck with me. Today being the day after is the day of the dead and in other countries you go and honor loved ones that have passed. Here in America we skip over that part. I have noticed that in recent years it is more acceptable to dress up for church festivals and places like the mall and such. But to me it doesn't seem right. I know what could be wrong, we are just having fun? But it truly doesn't sit right with me. My husband grew up not even carving pumpkins! They also did not give out candy. I may be extreme and I have nothing against people doing it. I just don't know what traditions we might pass on to our future children.

Brr

I am writing this from the land of trying to wake up and trying to stay warm. It suddenly has turned cold in Florida, brr. I still have not gotten through to my brain that today is Monday and I am working. :( hubby worked weekend nights so he will lay down as I walk out the door. It is so hard sometimes to go that, I like curling up :)

Weekend update...

Didn't go camping this weekend :( Friday was a bust, but had a cozy night with the hubby after dinner. Saturday went garage sailing with friends, found some good finds. Stuffed animals for bells, a pair of shoes, a couple shirts, a vase, and some random things...Sunday we went to church and dusty got invited for male bonding kayak trip in the afternoon, and then a fire in the backyard to finish off weekend:) I love fires, makes you sit and watch in awe. A bit mesmerizing and they make me a bit pensive, you start thinking about life.

Date night in:)

Nothing too crazy this weekend... We were planning on camping..:( but we spent our budget on other things... Really put a damper on things. Ran a couple errands got the essentials - free lotion, free cold medicine, inexpensive makeup, apples, lettuce, tomatoes, and peppers:)
Then we curled up and watched some shows at hubby's request:) tommorrow we plan on garage sailing for fun with just a bit of cash. We will see if we find some treasures!

Morning confusion

I woke up and I must have still been dreaming but I thought I had not gone to work after a lunch break. I would have been in trouble! Grogginess is hard to shake off sometimes. This morning started early with bells waking us both up right before alarm clock at 5am ... Dusty leaves early I usually only remember parts of the morning or wake up when he is about to leave. Then I usually can fall back asleep but I am always tired. Even when I am grot or don't want to talk in the am my brain keeps going and sometimes I can't seem to stop talking. . . It's a bit frustrating at times. Parts of my brain won't be functional yet my speech will be going a mile a minute lol messed up.

It's a new day and its Saturday!

Hubbie is working today, probably do chores around the house. Maybe venture over to my moms to look at quilts or something ... Still very early but will be going back to sleep very soon, right after i finish my book! Had fun last night with girl friends, the Greek festival was enjoyable. I will try and drag my hubbie there next year.

Sad..

I am upset at myself and my body... Hung out with an old friend that has struggled with weight during her life as well as have I. She currently is very thin and I look at myself in failure.. I know she works very hard in watching what she eats and works out a lot. I am proud of her because I know personally because I too have lost weight. Sadly, I have gained it back plus some.... It's my fault I know. There have been things that have happened that make it harder but it's still my fault. It makes me very sad to have clothes in my closet that don't fit and to look at myself in the mirror and not be happy. I am on my period which makes me more emotional but it tears me up inside being overweight like I am. I pray for the strength and courage and the help from God to help me find a way for me to lose weight and become healthier. I get tired of thinking or talking about it. I just want it to happen. ..... I used to worry about gaining weight once prego. Now I am concerned about being overweight to begin with and have health problems. Sigh. I am being so depressing tonight :(

October baby

The movie folks, no I am not prego! Love the movie. Very emotional and based on a true story!
Secondly it's getting cooler in the morning and evenings! Very exciting:)
This year I decided I would spend some money on fall decor. I decided a wreath for our door, especially since the front of our house is a little drab... I think I would make one that I absolutely love but that would end up costing lots. I got a 50 dollar wreath that dusty approved/picked out for 25. I would have liked to spend less but it will last for years.

Scatterbrained :)

I have the day off! Yeah! I work Friday instead. Had a really fun weekend and so far a really fun week:) I am currently in bed snuggled with my two sweepy heads. Bells is under the covers all cute and snuggly:) I have much to do today, library, wreath shopping, grocery shopping, more random errands... And a little cleaning to keep house clean. I am glad it's October, not quite ready for Christmas but will be here soon! Wondering how and what we will be doing for the holidays this year...

Catching up ramblings

I don't have much time, because I have dawdled :) today is my Friday! I still like work, even when it gets a bit stressful. It's still hard to come home so late, but I am getting used to it. This weekend is barktober feat, a trick or treat kind of thing for dogs and their owners. (I would think the dogs really don't care...) :) I have never gone before and would like to go. They have a best kisser contest for the dogs and I think Bells would be a contender! She kisses on your lips:) but we might go camping. We haven't decided due to a few things, so we will see. I made some new dishes off of Pinterest and it turned out pretty well. Keeping the recipes for our rotation! I learned after stocking our pantry with a marvelous price on beans that pintos are what refried beans are not black beans... I think someone told me black beams are what it was a long time ago. Well, it makes sense now why black beans blended just didn't taste the same! Our master bedroom is still not done. We have pretty much all the decor and the paint picked out. Except for last minute touches.. I want it done sooner than later, but we will see.. Our bathroom needs to be gutted and redone..

I am running out of time, sorry for the disjointedness :) ttyl

Friday

So tired... I didn't take a lunch today... Instead I had to leave early. I was just so busy at work, it flew by. I ate while I worked but just didn't take a break. Whew I am glad to be home. I assigned titles all day ... Tons. Side note, my back is doing much better. It still hurts a little and leg goes numb a bit, but overall better:). Very happy to be home and have the weekend off together! Yea! We are taking Bella to a new groomer tomorrow, heard really good reviews and really excited. Well ttyl:)

Friday

I have the day off today!!! Why then am I up at 6:30? :( I don't think we are camping.... My brain is going blank... Must be the shortage of caffeine :) reconvene later

Pain and frustration

So I have had virtually no pain for about 2 months. Something happened over the weekend, my back muscles went weak again.... Not sure what happened. I hurt If I sit or lay down. Super stiff and hurts to stretch. Plus every time I get up to walk I look like I have a stick up my butt, until I get stretched out... Can't sleep so I took a lortab last night. Ugh I do not like the feeling... I took it right after dinner. It makes me sick to my stomach and gives me a head dizzy feeling like I had some alcohol. Me no like. It wore off at1:30 and didn't sleep much after. Now onto the heating pad. :( why oh why:( I need to work but this is so embarrassing and frustrating and painful. Lord help me please !

Not feeling good

So, yesterday at work I started feeling crummy... Came home barely ate dinner and went to lay down... This morning I have a headache and already I can tell my stomach doesn't feel 100%. But one needs to work to get paid:( I just want to stay home under the covers please? Thankfully Isaac was not dangerous to us and most everybody is back to normal. .... Lord help me today ...

Isaac ...

Is it bad of me that I am a bit bummed that it isn't headed our way? Well I am ...

Oops forgot pics

Camping is tiring

So, had a lot of fun, but so tired after everything. We borrowed two kayaks from friends and then realized too late that you really need two vehicles to kayak on the river. But since we didn't want to give up we decided to paddle upstream first then when we could go no further float back. The current was decent so we got quite a workout! My new fitness app says that kayaking for just one hour burns over 500 calories! We figured we kayaked really good for a solid 3 hours. But we were on the water from 9am to 2:30pm! It was a lot of fun but my arms started to give out around lunch so we stopped ate lunch and thankfully dusty was tired too so we headed back. So easy going back lol.. Once we got back and showered we layed down and my arms started hurting so bad even my fingers hurt. I nearly cried getting out of bed. Thankfully had ib profun and for the rest of the night I was ok. I am a little sore but not bad now. We played a new game and loved it. Monopoly in cards, no board:) perfect for camping and maybe a hurricane party;) Sunday we took it easy and then packed up. It took roughly an hour and a half to pack up. Overall very good first trip! When we got home it looked like a disaster zone, since we left last minute and in a rush... Guess what we did! Cleaned and cleaned and did a little more cleaning. My house is company worthy! :)
So hurricane? Tropical storm? Board or not to board windows? Will hubby work all week? Will I work this week? School canceled at least two days...we will just have to wait for the answers to these questions...

Sleep?

So, first night I pop up and can't really sleep that much. I think my mind and body are too excited. The bed is not too bad. The AC works so well I am under the covers! I decided to walk to the bathrooms at 4 and took the little one as well. The stars are beautiful, there are two camp sites that are roughing it and sleeping under the stars. Plus some tents.. I am thankful to be camping in style :) here in Florida you need to watch out for snakes, lizards, frogs, palmetto bugs (cockroach), and that is plenty for me to freak out about. I grew up and when we went camping you just had to watch out for bears! Hehe... Here are some pics of us camping so far

Hmmm not so bad

I like my new doctor:) the waiting room was warm and inviting with fun and relaxing music plus there was a baby:) so cute! I liked the nurse that did the basics and once the doc came in it was over in less than 5 min! Very impressed:)

Ugh...yearly appointment

So, the time has come to go and get more birth control. You know what that means.... Invasive doctor visit. :( I don't like doctors to begin with, but this is really no fun. I am trying someone new, so we will see. I hope it doesn't take long.

Anyway, after that fun appointment we are packing up and going camping! Hooray! I pray that the storm won't reach us till after we get home. Well, must go and get ready for my appointment...

Bored at work :)

New paint color:) brighter than I would normally wear, but I like it!

Morning woes

Alarm clock woke me up... But it's nicer in bed... :( I let bells out then curled up back in bed with my sweetie, and bells layed her head on my ankles:) sigh.. I like the morning, quiet, peaceful, brand new day. But I am not a morning person. Not always crabby but not easy to get up or function. Some mornings I proceed to be a talker but my head is telling me to be quiet.. Very frustrating lol

Sugar cookies with my friend "S" :)

My mom bought me some new cookie cutters from her travels, so I decided to make cookies! Now I collect cookie cutters... I have an awesome gingerbread cookie recipe but sugar cookies are not my fav. Since I don't think gingerbread goes for the entire year, my search for the best tasting sugar cookie recipe continues.
My mom also brought home recipes from one of my new aunts. Guess what she had a sugar and a butter cookie recipe.. So I tried both. The first one I added lemon flavoring too and the second one I followed recipe and put orange juice in it. First one was a hit. Also made icing with almond flavoring ! Yummy!! Cut the cookies and decorated them with my friend sarah and here are the best ones...

Nails

So lately there has been new ideas happening in the nail world... Here is my review of them.

Sally Hansen crackle... As below you will see I used a silver white base and a pink crackle. I don't like it much.

Sally Hansen magnetic on the other hand.. I love! As seen below I have the purple and blue demonstrated. It's very easy and I love it!

This was the story of lefse via pictures:)